Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Monday, July 29, 2013
Life Gripe: My Life is a Struggle Sometimes
Okay, I am really digging deep and opening myself up here. Life, sometimes it's just so bland and boring. But I do know I'm fortunate to have a roof over my head and food on the table. And I try to always keep that in mind, but sometimes, I just get so bored, lonely and discouraged.
I only work occasional part-time outside the home because I get Social Security Disability and have a very limited income. And then I have to deal with the issues of why I'm on disability. I do have three online ventures that I enjoy working with, and while they make some income, they're not bringing in enough money right now. One of my ventures, InCareRx has great income potential, but it takes some time to establish.
I've lived in Roanoke, Virginia for 5 years now and still don't have any close friends. I have a few acquaintances but no close friends. At least none to spend time with, go places and do things. At the same time, I can't really afford to do much. My vehicle needs more work, so I don't travel anywhere outside of Roanoke. I don't get to go see my family back home or go on any trips. Sadly, I've put close to $1000 into my jeep so far, and it still needs about $700-$900 more probably. It's drivable, but who knows how long that will last. And I have a hard time going outside the home, anxiety issues sometimes.
Sometimes, I feel so lost, lonely and empty. My husband works night shift Monday through Friday, then has his kids on Saturdays, then it's back to work on Sunday night, so we don't really get to do much. Besides, my hubby is a total homebody. When he's off work, he rarely moves from his computer chair. So hubby is not exactly inspirational or motivational to me at all. Don't get me wrong, I do love him. But that's one reason I am the way I am now too. I use to have so many active people around me. Always doing things, always on the go. No more.
I spend most of my days here at home, more or less isolated. The extent of my life outside the home is occasional part time work about once or twice a month. I have trips to the bank, gas station, grocery store and post office. Outside of those things, there's basically nothing. I do walk my dog 3/4 a mile almost everyday. She's the only joy I have. I love her so much. She keeps me sane.
I've gained about 45 pounds since I married and moved here almost 5 years ago. I even tried a running program last fall, but half way through the program I ended up with an ankle stress fracture and had to quit. I was out of doing anything for about six months. Then there's the problem with severe fatigue that I deal with now. So discouraging and disappointing. It seems I always get roadblocks whenever I do try something.
Hobbies and interests? Basically none. Once in a while, when I get in the mood, I like to read a good book. And I take my daily walks with Matte. I watch my favorite shows on television which is what I spend most of my time doing, besides being online. There's cooking, but I don't really enjoy cooking. I do it because I have to. I have flower beds that I love and try to maintain, but I'm not a fan of gardening or weeding them out. I'm not very creative, so I don't do any kind of arts or crafts. And I can't afford to do much, let alone outside the home. And on top of it all, I have a huge severe fatigue problem I struggle with. So I just feel kind of stuck in a big rut.
Once upon a time, I use to be so active. In my younger days actually. I had more money and energy, I wasn't as fatigued and also had friends and family. We use to go on trips all the time to the beach, the smoky mountains, Atlantic City, NJ, Carowinds, Kings Dominion, dancing, races, festivals. Then there were cookouts, family visits, trips to the mall or the movies, dining out, etc., etc. But now, I've lost both of my parents. I even use to be a big fitness fanatic and worked out 4-6 days a week.
It's so hard to believe I am that same person I was back then. Things have gotten progressively worse since I turned 40. I'm now 48, so the last 8 years or so have been a struggle. Most everything that was exciting about my life has gone away since those days.
So often, I find myself wondering what it would be like if things were different. If I didn't face all the problems and issues I have in my life now. To me, they are huge hurdles. I have so many different road blocks and barriers I don't know how to break through them or deal with them. And I have no one to help me, push me, to lean on or to confide in. I have nothing to look forward to in life. The only way I get through it, is I just try to deal with life one day at time. That and my little dog Matte who brings me joy and is with me day in and day out, right by my side.
I never thought I would end up the person I am today. I use to always say, I would never let myself get old, fat and find myself sitting home alone in a rocking chair, but that's pretty much how it is, except my rocking chair is the couch. I don't know what my future holds. As of now, it looks to hold nothing. I just try not to think about it or dwell on it, although it's hard sometimes. I've been here for 5 years and nothing has changed or improved.
I just keep praying to God everyday that things will change for the better, that he hasn't forgotten me or forsaken me. God has a plan for me, I just have to be patient. He will lead my path to better things yet to come. And that he will bring the right people into my life at the right time.
Today's Life Quote:
I only work occasional part-time outside the home because I get Social Security Disability and have a very limited income. And then I have to deal with the issues of why I'm on disability. I do have three online ventures that I enjoy working with, and while they make some income, they're not bringing in enough money right now. One of my ventures, InCareRx has great income potential, but it takes some time to establish.
I've lived in Roanoke, Virginia for 5 years now and still don't have any close friends. I have a few acquaintances but no close friends. At least none to spend time with, go places and do things. At the same time, I can't really afford to do much. My vehicle needs more work, so I don't travel anywhere outside of Roanoke. I don't get to go see my family back home or go on any trips. Sadly, I've put close to $1000 into my jeep so far, and it still needs about $700-$900 more probably. It's drivable, but who knows how long that will last. And I have a hard time going outside the home, anxiety issues sometimes.
Sometimes, I feel so lost, lonely and empty. My husband works night shift Monday through Friday, then has his kids on Saturdays, then it's back to work on Sunday night, so we don't really get to do much. Besides, my hubby is a total homebody. When he's off work, he rarely moves from his computer chair. So hubby is not exactly inspirational or motivational to me at all. Don't get me wrong, I do love him. But that's one reason I am the way I am now too. I use to have so many active people around me. Always doing things, always on the go. No more.
I spend most of my days here at home, more or less isolated. The extent of my life outside the home is occasional part time work about once or twice a month. I have trips to the bank, gas station, grocery store and post office. Outside of those things, there's basically nothing. I do walk my dog 3/4 a mile almost everyday. She's the only joy I have. I love her so much. She keeps me sane.
I've gained about 45 pounds since I married and moved here almost 5 years ago. I even tried a running program last fall, but half way through the program I ended up with an ankle stress fracture and had to quit. I was out of doing anything for about six months. Then there's the problem with severe fatigue that I deal with now. So discouraging and disappointing. It seems I always get roadblocks whenever I do try something.
Hobbies and interests? Basically none. Once in a while, when I get in the mood, I like to read a good book. And I take my daily walks with Matte. I watch my favorite shows on television which is what I spend most of my time doing, besides being online. There's cooking, but I don't really enjoy cooking. I do it because I have to. I have flower beds that I love and try to maintain, but I'm not a fan of gardening or weeding them out. I'm not very creative, so I don't do any kind of arts or crafts. And I can't afford to do much, let alone outside the home. And on top of it all, I have a huge severe fatigue problem I struggle with. So I just feel kind of stuck in a big rut.
Once upon a time, I use to be so active. In my younger days actually. I had more money and energy, I wasn't as fatigued and also had friends and family. We use to go on trips all the time to the beach, the smoky mountains, Atlantic City, NJ, Carowinds, Kings Dominion, dancing, races, festivals. Then there were cookouts, family visits, trips to the mall or the movies, dining out, etc., etc. But now, I've lost both of my parents. I even use to be a big fitness fanatic and worked out 4-6 days a week.
It's so hard to believe I am that same person I was back then. Things have gotten progressively worse since I turned 40. I'm now 48, so the last 8 years or so have been a struggle. Most everything that was exciting about my life has gone away since those days.
So often, I find myself wondering what it would be like if things were different. If I didn't face all the problems and issues I have in my life now. To me, they are huge hurdles. I have so many different road blocks and barriers I don't know how to break through them or deal with them. And I have no one to help me, push me, to lean on or to confide in. I have nothing to look forward to in life. The only way I get through it, is I just try to deal with life one day at time. That and my little dog Matte who brings me joy and is with me day in and day out, right by my side.
I never thought I would end up the person I am today. I use to always say, I would never let myself get old, fat and find myself sitting home alone in a rocking chair, but that's pretty much how it is, except my rocking chair is the couch. I don't know what my future holds. As of now, it looks to hold nothing. I just try not to think about it or dwell on it, although it's hard sometimes. I've been here for 5 years and nothing has changed or improved.
I just keep praying to God everyday that things will change for the better, that he hasn't forgotten me or forsaken me. God has a plan for me, I just have to be patient. He will lead my path to better things yet to come. And that he will bring the right people into my life at the right time.
Today's Life Quote:
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Life Hype: Free InCareRx Prescription Savings Card
Free InCareRx Prescription Savings Card
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As a new InCareRx Agent I can provide you with our FREE pharmacy program. The card may be used at over 60,000 pharmacies nationwide, including most major chains. This is not insurance nor does this discount card have any cash value. Everyone is eligible for this program. There are no age or income restrictions and it's absolutely FREE! Save up to 90% on all your medications and prescriptions with this Free card.
This is the Drug Discount Card that provides you with CASH REBATES on a broad range of Brand Name prescription drugs. These cash rebates are sent to you personally via an Official Mastercard Cash Card delivered directly to your mailbox! No forms or paperwork - just purchase your prescription drugs and receive your discount and any qualifying rebate! No other drug discount card provides this combination of savings and cash: Discounts at point of purchase + cash in your wallet. Incare Savings Card card has the best overall savings and value of any drug discount card in America -- Get your card today!
Want to become an InCareRx Agent? No Sign Up Fees, No Monthly Fees & No Yearly Fees, Commissions are paid from transactions in Month 1, in Month 2. No Waiting! Commissions are earned and paid as long as your cards are generating transactions, and you Earn $1 per prescription filled. If your patient/client gets 5 prescriptions, that is $5, and if they continue using the card you continue to get commissions.
For More Info Please Visit: Incare Savings Card
Life Quote:
drug card, free, prescriptions, pharmacy, prescription discount, discount rxcards, savings, discount
As a new InCareRx Agent I can provide you with our FREE pharmacy program. The card may be used at over 60,000 pharmacies nationwide, including most major chains. This is not insurance nor does this discount card have any cash value. Everyone is eligible for this program. There are no age or income restrictions and it's absolutely FREE! Save up to 90% on all your medications and prescriptions with this Free card.
This is the Drug Discount Card that provides you with CASH REBATES on a broad range of Brand Name prescription drugs. These cash rebates are sent to you personally via an Official Mastercard Cash Card delivered directly to your mailbox! No forms or paperwork - just purchase your prescription drugs and receive your discount and any qualifying rebate! No other drug discount card provides this combination of savings and cash: Discounts at point of purchase + cash in your wallet. Incare Savings Card card has the best overall savings and value of any drug discount card in America -- Get your card today!
Want to become an InCareRx Agent? No Sign Up Fees, No Monthly Fees & No Yearly Fees, Commissions are paid from transactions in Month 1, in Month 2. No Waiting! Commissions are earned and paid as long as your cards are generating transactions, and you Earn $1 per prescription filled. If your patient/client gets 5 prescriptions, that is $5, and if they continue using the card you continue to get commissions.
For More Info Please Visit: Incare Savings Card
Life Quote:
A penny saved is a penny earned.
- Benjamin Franklin
- Benjamin Franklin
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Life Hype: Kim's Sensational Jewelry by Kitsy Lane
Today's Life Hype is about my beautiful jewelry I received from my own boutique, Kim's Sensational Jewelry by Kitsy Lane. I ordered three pieces, a Delila Turquoise Bracelet, Chloe Necklace and a Susana Headband. My order came by mail, USPS within eight days of ordering. Some order's depending whether they are at the warehouse or come from the designer can take anywhere averaging from two days to a week. My bracelet is absolutely gorgeous and will go with almost anything, and even with a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. My necklace is lovely and dainty and will also go with most anything. My headband can also be worn with just about anything. They arrived it their black Kitsy Lane boxes, each with a little scripted beauty message on the inside of the box, along with a thank you card. All boxes come with either black satin or black velvet. My headband actually came in a black velvet sachet.
Overall, I love all my Kitsy Lane Jewelry! On top of it all, I love having my own boutique, it's really fun and exciting, and they offer great coupons! And if I can earn a little extra money at the same time, that's even better, it's win/win situation! They have a great back office and offer great help. I also belong to a couple of Kitsy Lane groups which enables me to talk with and share with other Kitsy Lane Boutique owners. So my overall experience with Kitsy Lane has been absolutely wonderful so far. If you love jewelry and your looking for a work at home opportunity with no start up fees, then Kitsy Lane is perfect for you! And if you just love the jewelry, but not looking for any work at home opportunities, then just browse my boutique and watch for coupon offers that I often post on Facebook.
View My Boutique Kim's Sensational Jewelry by Kitsy Lane
Today's Life Quote:
Coco Chanel quotes
Overall, I love all my Kitsy Lane Jewelry! On top of it all, I love having my own boutique, it's really fun and exciting, and they offer great coupons! And if I can earn a little extra money at the same time, that's even better, it's win/win situation! They have a great back office and offer great help. I also belong to a couple of Kitsy Lane groups which enables me to talk with and share with other Kitsy Lane Boutique owners. So my overall experience with Kitsy Lane has been absolutely wonderful so far. If you love jewelry and your looking for a work at home opportunity with no start up fees, then Kitsy Lane is perfect for you! And if you just love the jewelry, but not looking for any work at home opportunities, then just browse my boutique and watch for coupon offers that I often post on Facebook.
View My Boutique Kim's Sensational Jewelry by Kitsy Lane
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Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Life Hype: Wolf Creek Greenway
I love the Wolf Creek Greenway in Vinton, VA! The Wolf Creek Greenway can be accessed through Stonebridge Park, Goode Park, and Lynn Haven Baptist Church. The Greenway is 2.2 miles of gravel trail that continues to be developed. A good portion of it runs along a shallow creek. There are also many informational kiosks that have doggy bag dispensers. The Greenway is great for walking, jogging, bike riding and nature lovers. The two parks both have baseball fields with Goode Park also having a batting cage and Stonebridge has a playground.
I enjoy walking my dog there a couple of times a week in the spring and summer. Of course, Matte has to stop and smell everything. She also enjoys meeting other dogs. There are a couple of picnic tables along the way, Also, there is a picnic shelter just off off Stonebridge Park. There are even a couple of benches along the way to stop and relax on as well as take in nature. Another great thing is the Greenway is rarely crowded like the ones in Roanoke are. So if your looking for a nice quite place to walk, jog or bike ride this is a great place to do it.
Today's Life Quote
I enjoy walking my dog there a couple of times a week in the spring and summer. Of course, Matte has to stop and smell everything. She also enjoys meeting other dogs. There are a couple of picnic tables along the way, Also, there is a picnic shelter just off off Stonebridge Park. There are even a couple of benches along the way to stop and relax on as well as take in nature. Another great thing is the Greenway is rarely crowded like the ones in Roanoke are. So if your looking for a nice quite place to walk, jog or bike ride this is a great place to do it.
Today's Life Quote
In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks. ~John Muir
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Life Hype: Memorable Holidays
You know I was just thinking back to 2005 when the holidays was a very tough time of the year for me and my son. I had lost my job, my car and was barely hanging on to my house. We had no heat or hot water. We had to heat up water on the kitchen stove to take a bath and on top of it my refrigerator wasn't cooling properly. We hardly had any food. And certainly no money for a Thanksgiving meal, let alone Christmas gifts or a Christmas dinner.
This was the one time in my life I was totally surprised and shocked by the kindness of strangers and friends. Around Thanksgiving, my son's boss showed up at my door one day with a co-worker and had a huge box full of a wonderful Thanksgiving meal for us. I was so surprised and just so touched all I could do was give them a big hug and thank them from the bottom of my heart all while crying. I'm thankful to say we had a wonderful Thanksgiving meal after all.
Then at Christmas time, one of my dearest friends and his mother came to my house one day and told me to relax while they cleaned my house for me as a gift. They also totally cleaned out my refrigerator and cleaned out the dust from under the bottom which solved my problem of my refrigerator not cooling properly. They also brought over a gift for me, it was a AM/FM CD Player. And in addition brought me a box full of groceries donated by the food pantry. Then they took me to the mission where I got a few warm winter clothes and the mission also gave us a $50 Gift Card to Walmart for Christmas. And that's not all. My son's co-workers also gave him a Christmas card with about $250 in it and gave him a gift too. And of course, we received nice gifts from my family. So as it turned out we had a rather nice Christmas after all.
It just goes to show you, we thought these were going to be the worst holidays ever for us and they actually turned out to be one of the best. Not just the gifts, but this was the first time we had ever seen real kindness from others. It was very touching. We still went through some pretty rough times for the next three years, but somehow we made it through thanks to the grace of god and kindness of others.
I've had some nice holidays since then, but I can honestly say none have felt as wonderful nor held the same wonderful meaning as the holidays of 2005. I will never forget the kindness of others that year.
Today's Life Quote:
In a world full of people who couldn't care less, be someone who couldn't care more. ~Author Unknown
This was the one time in my life I was totally surprised and shocked by the kindness of strangers and friends. Around Thanksgiving, my son's boss showed up at my door one day with a co-worker and had a huge box full of a wonderful Thanksgiving meal for us. I was so surprised and just so touched all I could do was give them a big hug and thank them from the bottom of my heart all while crying. I'm thankful to say we had a wonderful Thanksgiving meal after all.
Then at Christmas time, one of my dearest friends and his mother came to my house one day and told me to relax while they cleaned my house for me as a gift. They also totally cleaned out my refrigerator and cleaned out the dust from under the bottom which solved my problem of my refrigerator not cooling properly. They also brought over a gift for me, it was a AM/FM CD Player. And in addition brought me a box full of groceries donated by the food pantry. Then they took me to the mission where I got a few warm winter clothes and the mission also gave us a $50 Gift Card to Walmart for Christmas. And that's not all. My son's co-workers also gave him a Christmas card with about $250 in it and gave him a gift too. And of course, we received nice gifts from my family. So as it turned out we had a rather nice Christmas after all.
It just goes to show you, we thought these were going to be the worst holidays ever for us and they actually turned out to be one of the best. Not just the gifts, but this was the first time we had ever seen real kindness from others. It was very touching. We still went through some pretty rough times for the next three years, but somehow we made it through thanks to the grace of god and kindness of others.
I've had some nice holidays since then, but I can honestly say none have felt as wonderful nor held the same wonderful meaning as the holidays of 2005. I will never forget the kindness of others that year.
Today's Life Quote:
In a world full of people who couldn't care less, be someone who couldn't care more. ~Author Unknown
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Life Gripe: Running With Injuries
Week 5 Day 3 of my No Boundaries C25K Training. So not only did I do 1 1/2 miles, but I did well over that and did the past Saturdays required 2 1/4 miles at home on my treadmill. And guess what?
Strange, but I had absolutely NO PAIN in my lower legs. I did however
have a little bit of pain on the inside of my right shin. Nothing too
major a couple days rest & ice should help. Hopefully that won't be a
new problem. This was the first time for that pain. But as for my usual lower leg pain I had been getting with every
run.... NONE with my treadmill workout. My breathing seemed to also be a
tad easier on the treadmill. Not a lot, but a tad. I also set the
incline on 2 to more mimic outside running like they said to. For some
reason the interval times seem to pass by so quickly and it seemed like I
did twice as many running & walking intervals at home than I do at
training. Also at home it took me 40 minutes and our training is usually
about 30 minutes I think. I'm just happy I was able to do it.
So went to the Dr. and she said they are not typical, but are considered a form of shin splints. She was proud that I was doing the No Boundaries Program...that's it's good for me and wants me to continue doing it. So, she prescribed me an anti-inflammatory and is sending me to physical therapy. She said absolutely nothing about wanting me to stop running. But we'll have to also see what physical therapy says too. Meantime I told her about running on the treadmill with no problems, so she said that probably the surface helped, but is still surprised my legs didn't hurt even on there, so maybe that's a good sign.
So on to Week 5, Day 1 of my No Boundaries C25K Training. I ran with the group outside on the asphalt. My breathing was tough about mid way through as it has been with the now 1 1/2 minute runs. I have to admit I'm a little worried about next weeks 2 minute runs. My breathing was pretty decent until we got up to the 1 1/2 minute runs. And now it's tough. As far as my legs, I started to feel a little pain in my lower legs about 1 3/4 miles into our run...nothing major this time, just a little, so I went ahead & slowed down my speed a little. That helped, it allowed me to make it the rest of the way. The pain wasn't near as bad as it had been in the past. I have anti-inflammatory medicines to start taking and I have a physical therapy appointment on Thursday. Gonna continue to ice and stretch. And see how my legs do. It may be that I have to do my Saturday long runs on the treadmill depending on how my legs keep doing with the asphalt running. But who knows maybe my legs are finally getting use to it and with the stretching/physical therapy and anti-inflammatory drugs they'll be okay. Time will tell.
Today's Life Quote:
"Run when you can, walk when you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up."
-Dean Karnazes
So went to the Dr. and she said they are not typical, but are considered a form of shin splints. She was proud that I was doing the No Boundaries Program...that's it's good for me and wants me to continue doing it. So, she prescribed me an anti-inflammatory and is sending me to physical therapy. She said absolutely nothing about wanting me to stop running. But we'll have to also see what physical therapy says too. Meantime I told her about running on the treadmill with no problems, so she said that probably the surface helped, but is still surprised my legs didn't hurt even on there, so maybe that's a good sign.
So on to Week 5, Day 1 of my No Boundaries C25K Training. I ran with the group outside on the asphalt. My breathing was tough about mid way through as it has been with the now 1 1/2 minute runs. I have to admit I'm a little worried about next weeks 2 minute runs. My breathing was pretty decent until we got up to the 1 1/2 minute runs. And now it's tough. As far as my legs, I started to feel a little pain in my lower legs about 1 3/4 miles into our run...nothing major this time, just a little, so I went ahead & slowed down my speed a little. That helped, it allowed me to make it the rest of the way. The pain wasn't near as bad as it had been in the past. I have anti-inflammatory medicines to start taking and I have a physical therapy appointment on Thursday. Gonna continue to ice and stretch. And see how my legs do. It may be that I have to do my Saturday long runs on the treadmill depending on how my legs keep doing with the asphalt running. But who knows maybe my legs are finally getting use to it and with the stretching/physical therapy and anti-inflammatory drugs they'll be okay. Time will tell.
Today's Life Quote:
"Run when you can, walk when you have to, crawl if you must; just never give up."
-Dean Karnazes
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